how i could just kill a man

do you miss the way we can talk about anything under the sun, with no censors behind our heels? where we would run and run but still catch our breaths, because we're in sync with our hearts and minds? you can't understand now, but neither would i, because we've lost it forever. we need to talk, but that's so cliched. perhaps we really need to talk but we wouldn't catch up anymore. i'm guilty as charged, but i like to think that the problem is with you, not me. it's him, not me.

don't comfort me, because i'm calmer than the storm. i can take it, because i can't take it any further than us. as soon as this ends i would make you feel smaller. so you would stop messing with my head, my head, my head.

i will do it. because i can do it.

to-do list:
register for SATs.
come up with topics for KI IS
pee double you. EFFING IDIOT.
and then... life.